I'm feeling some lyrics typing coming on so here's all of the lyrics from "Prior Peter" with little notes about the song.
Army BratI wrote a riff for this song randomly and just needed words to go along with it and when I recorded the Demo take for it, I just called it "Army Brat" because it moves around a lot. Cheesy lyrics were written shortly after.
Let me tell you a story about an army brat
Moving cross the country, and other stuff like that
Oh how he hated his life, army brat
He had one constant friend
That was his guitar
He played it in cold lake, he played it in Petawawa
Oh Army Brat
But then one of his moving days, the movers left behind
his precious guitar four provinces down the line
He shed many tears over his loss
He locked himself in his room unable to go on
Then one Day a package Came Express and Very Large
He Opened it up and it contained a brand new guitar
oh New Guitar
DepersonalizationI was monkeying around with 7th chords and this is what came out. It makes me feel like I'm ripping off the tangible ears. I'm not happy with the drum beat but that's what it is on the album so I have no choice.
I look outside my door
but I
see no friendly face
folks are
all strangers in this town
they don't
they don't wave or smile
I go walking down the street
look ing
for a soul to greet
no one
looks me in the eye
they all
look away or hide
de per son al i za tion
Oh how I de spise you
you make me feel so lonely
and you love it don't you
The Move OutIt's the only heavy song I wrote so it feels really out of place and also it's too high for me to sing but vocal ranges be damned I will yell on my album if I want to. It's modeled after Rage Against the Machine.
The time has come
to move away
to another house
somewhere dar away
I've grown too old
for this suburban life
I need the city
to free me from this strife
Cause it's hard to live at home
when your soul
desires to roam
your parents don't gel well
with you
after 18 years it's time to move out
pack all my stuff
in a carboard box
make sure
nothing gets lost
rent a big white van
throw it all inside
go somewhere else
leave that old house behind
Dark and DawnI wanted to write a song about driving by an old friends house and it sort of twisted into this whole "girl leaving" song which is cool too. This is pretty much a straight rip off of "Shiny" by The Decemberists so after I wrote it, I took the drums and bass from Shiny and just plopped them into this. It's my 3rd favourite song that I wrote during this whole business.
I drive by your house
all is quiet in your house
when it's dark it's dark
I look across the lawn
the memories haven't gone
in the dark the dark
I wonder what this life has done to us
I wonder if I could have kept your trust
you have moved away
gone outwards looking for a way
to see the dawn the dawn
I wish that you were here
then maybe I could hold you near
and watch the dawn, the dawn
and I wonder what this life has done to us
I wonder if I could have stopped this loss
I wonder if we could have made a home
I wonder if I'll survive on my own
Is our innocence all gone
were our younger years really not that long
is it possible that I can still atone for all the things that I've done wrong
to you
Three WishesThe guitar recorded poorly for this song so it doesn't sound as good as I had hoped, and I also think the vocals are (again) out of my range but that's what came out so there it is. The music was sorrowful so I wrote some personal sorrowful lyrics to go along with it.
IF I had three wishes, let me tel you what they'd be. First I would wish to take all your pain away. Cause it hurts me inside to sit here and watch you cry. With this first wish all the tears would be wiped from your eyes.
For my second wish, I'd wish your past away. No more solem regrets, life could be a brand new day. For my last wish, I'd wish for your heart, cause though I care for you deeply you've never loved me from the very start.
But I don't have these wishes, it makes me hurt inside. Cause this whole deal makes me empty, makes me want to give up the fight.
Lost in WestportOriginally was "Lost in Moncton" but I've never been to Moncton so I changed the title. Sounds a lot like the first half of "Holland" and the last half of "Sister" both by Sufjan.
it's midnight in westport
the car rolls along
the stores are all closed up
and dark
The street lights are quiet
their bulbs seem quiet dim
they all semm to say
You're lost
ah you're lost
ah you're lost
thumb up on ashpault
the semis blaze by
they never look over
or stop
the birds in the forest
they chirp quietly
I think that they're saying
I'm lost
Ah I'm lost
Ah I'm lost
5 Long YearsThis whole song is about this guy that I used to be friends with but have since drifted away from each other and he goes to my school but we don't talk.
I can't help but wonder how it would have been. Would you still have me over? Would we still be friends? It's been 5 long years now since we last spoke. I want to say sorry, I want to call your home.
But I burned all the bridges between me and you. We'll never speak again. It's sad but that's the truth.
I walk right by you almost every single day. Out of the corner of my eye I see you look away. Do you recognise me, have I really changed that much. The long hair and glasses seem to hide me from your thoughts.
RegretsI wrote this and "Ashamed" 2 days before I recorded and they were both good enough to replace some crappier songs that I wrote. This is my second favourite song that I wrote and fits better into the sound I'm trying to create with the rest of my songs. It's about making a mistake and wondering if it's to late to go back and try when you feel like you've missed and opportunity.
Four years together, I must have been blind to not notice you in all of that time. The reason is I Was preoccupied but I feel like a fool since you're now on my mind.
One day together is all that it took to make me take a good second look. You live hours away, how could we make this work, but I'll still never tell you, I'm afraid it would hurt.
Well damn you regrets, you make my heart hurt, I should have just let you come in and work on this heart so torn and blinded. She might have helped stop this mistake.
But there's no sense crying over so much spilled milk, I'll just have to start trying, believe that this could work. Do you share my feelings? Someday I might ask. Can I work up the courage or will I just pass.
AshamedMy favourite song on the album. It's just about feeling stupid about your past.
I am discouraged at all I've done wrong, my past makes me blush, makes me wish it was all hgone. So much wasted time that I could have saved, had I not been so foolish in the first place.
Some men look on their past in a positive light, me and my past we just want to fight. So many months I spent waiting around, so blinded by love as I ran myself aground.
Is it my fault this happened? Is there anyone to blame? Will I ever let go or will it always bring me shame? Can I find someone to help me forget? Must I forever carry this painful debt?
This is The EndI think a lot of the songs on this album talk about unrequited love which has been something that I've experienced a lot in my life so I wrote this song about giving up on unrequited love.
I called your house just the other day, someone hung up on me. And I know you don't love me but that's no reason to be rude. I was trying to tell you that I'm giving up on you as of today. So now that you know, stop trying to hide from me and running away.
It hasn't been easy, trying to get you to care, that's why today I am saying this is the end.
So there you have it. Now you know what I'm saying and why I'm saying it. Enjoy.