When we said we were moving, I tried to tell people truly how I felt about things. I said I would not miss Toronto, but I would miss the people that I had grown close to in Toronto. That turned out to be accurate, maybe moreso that I realized. I do not miss Toronto at all. I noticed this yesterday when I did the groceries. In Toronto, grocery shopping meant I was going to go into an overstuffed grocery store with a bunch of angry people, nearly get run over by someone's cart, pay way too much for food, and then probably witness someone cussing out the cashier on my way out because everyone is crazy. You think I am exaggerating but I actually chose a grocery store that was farther away because I witnessed less fights there. Yesterday I went to get groceries and even though it was a weekend it felt like a pleasant experience. I got my food, the cashier just looked bored instead of frightened for his life, the prices were a bit more reasonable, and when I left I didn't feel like I immediately needed a nap. I do not miss Toronto. I love the change of pace of things here so far.
I miss the people a lot more than I thought I did. On my last day at church there were a lot more emotions than I was expecting. I was really sad and some people were genuinely sad to see me go as well. That was surprising. I guess I just have a low view of myself at times but I didn't think anyone would miss me but that is definitely not the case and now I miss those people. I also miss the partners at my store. I spent most of my time with those people complaining about work and surviving the chaos together and now I probably won't hear from many of them again and that's sad. I'm going to miss them. They were some good people. I haven't started at a new church or a new store yet so there hasn't been anyone to fill the void yet.
Overall I am happy we are here though. Thus far our home life is much less chaotic and much more manageable. We have a dishwasher and a washing machine in the basement. We have a yard where I can let the dog out. We live on a quiet street in a quiet neighbourhood. The neighbours wave at you when they see you even if they don't know you. I can head down the street to get the mail and see the ocean. It's better here, but there's definitely going to be some adjustments.