Thursday, July 31, 2008

Complaining

I feel like the only times I ever post on here as of late is when I'm pissed off or upset or tired or not happy or something. I feel a little bad about it but then I remember that if I didn't complain here I'd probably complain in regular life a lot more. I apologize for making you, my fine readers, into an audience for my discontentment.

This summer has made me wonder why camp makes me frustrated, or upset, or angry or whatever about all this stuff that I've been posting about. Why do I only get upset at my friend for not spending time with me when I'm at camp and living in close proximity to them? Why do I get angry about my job and how lazy it makes me feel only when I'm here doing a job that should feel like a lot of fun? Why do people's personalities grate against me so much at camp when there seems to be no problem with it normally? Is it possible that too much time spent together just brings everyone's anxieties straight out to the forefront? I think so.

Which makes me wonder. Can I solve all these anxieties by using some of the things that I learned in the house, or am I destined to fret for the remainder of the summer? Stay Tuned.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Friends...

I often wonder if I have unrealistic expectations of some of my friends here at camp. I don't think I do but for some reason when I expect that because I'm friends with someone it means I will occasionally eat meals with them, will see them more than once a week, and will receive some kind of updates as to how they're feeling, I am constantly disappointed. I feel like I'm being reasonable here but I guess some people think that I require too much.

Sincerely
The Ever Critical
Ben

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

No One Left on my Team

It's been an interesting couple of days here at camp and the result is that I'm left at my own team. I don't really know what to do when I'm standing around with no warning and all of a sudden everyone on my team is gone. I feel like I'm all alone in a massive crowd. I'll make it through somehow but it was nicer to have other people working with me.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Thought of the Day About Camp

An organization is only as good as the amount of people its administrators are accountable to.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

A Dark Dark Knight Night

J and I are going to see "The Dark Night" tonight at midnight with a few friends. Crazy, I know, but we felt that it was important enough to have to go and see it as soon as possible. We also wanted to go because the house is going to a new monasticism conference this weekend and we might not be able to go to see it. Tomorrow is going to be a very long day.

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Responsibility

I hate being responsible.

Being responsible means forcing other people to follow the rules when I want to break them just as much as they do.

Being responsible means that I have to actually plan ahead for things instead of being able to enjoy the joys of spontaneity.

Being responsible means that I have to think about others needs and put them ahead of my own sometimes even if it means that I feel like poop as a result of this.

Being responsible means not telling people how I feel about them even though I really want to get it out of my system.

I hate being responsible.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Mail!

Hello friends, if you want to remain my friends you must send me mail (not really but if you want to be really nice then send me mail). In order to do this send mail here.

Chapman C/O
Camp Iawah
304 Iawah Rd. RR#2
Godfrey, ON
K0H 1T0

If I recieve mail from you, you will have my love and affection for as long as I can remember that you mailed me stuff.

Ben