Friday, February 27, 2009

Reporting from the Reading Room

I like to think that the posts I write from the library are the most interesting posts that I write, mostly just because because I always have to come up with some kind of alliterative title that I haven't used before.

Now you might be wondering what I'm doing in the library at 6:50 PM on a Friday night. Well let me tell you friend. It appears I have let myself get behind far enough that I'm completely screwed right now. I just finished a Psychology exam ten minutes ago and here I am listening to a CD a friend burned me and working on Chemistry homework that is due at 1 AM tonight. Once I manage to get that finished, there's a bio lab that I need to pull some scientific papers for, and then once that's done I have the actual bio lab to write, and a math test that really needs to be studied for. How did I end up here?

Well friend, it comes down to taking on more than you can handle. In hindsight I should have dropped a lot of the things that I'm doing this year so that I could focus on school. Sadly I did not and now I'm in a position where I need to just stick it out and fulfill my commitments to various people while I figure out how to stay on top of school at the same time. All of this means that giving up coffee for lent was a bad idea seeing as how I won't really be sleeping a lot over the next couple of weeks as I try and get caught up sufficiently to avoid drowning. Who in the world thought that this was a good way to spend four years of your life?

Click for full size image

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

The Resurrection of The Wednesday Morning Post

The first time I tried to write this post I actually just submitted the title without the actual post. Sorry for the confusion. It's Wednesday February 25th and this is the Wednesday morning post.

Now you might be asking yourself "Why is Ben suddenly resurrecting the Wednesday Morning Post so long after his last one?" or perhaps even "What's the point of the Wednesday Morning Post without the rival Monday Morning Post (may it rest in peace)?" Well friends I'm here to say that I'm reviving it because it was fun, because I have Wednesday mornings free again, and because there's this awkward gap in my morning classes on Wednesdays that needs something to fill it.

So here it is, my life currently in several paragraphs. What's going on you might ask? School is crazy. It's currently midterm season and I have 2 exams/tests to go before I'm through all of it. I feel like I have no time for anything right now (which is ironic because I'm blogging right now) and it's very stressful. It will be wonderful when first year is over and I can start next year with less on my plate and be more on top of things.

Also, I've decided to go to school in the spring. I was made aware that Queen's is offering Organic Chemistry in the spring term this year and I decided that this would be good. This is mostly because Organic Chemistry is really hard and so it's generally a good thing if you can make it easier via any means possible. So instead of doing it over a whole year with 4 other courses simultaneously I will be doing it over 6 weeks all by itself. It's going to be awesome. 6 hours of class a day for 4 days a week. Woo Hoo.

In Music news, nothing is going anywhere. I'm currently supposed to be recording an album in one month but actually have no time to write/record/play or anything right now. I'm not going to finish. I'm perfectly ok with all of this though. I will work on the album later, when I have time, and when I can get the help of some other people (Matt McKechnie offered to contribute and I'd like to take him up on this offer, I just don't have time right now).

And that was Wednesday Morning Post for this Wednesday February 25th. In next weeks issue... words.

Friday, February 20, 2009

In Limbo

Despite the fact that I'm away in Quebec on a ski trip, I'm waiting around for Monday. I know that it's stupid for me to be away on a ski trip but then in the back of my mind always thinking about how much closer I am to Monday but that's how this is going down and there's little you or I can do about it. Sometimes these things pan out this way.

So since I'm in limbo (which by the way, is a great Radiohead song) I've been thinking a lot about being in limbo. One thing I've noticed this week is that when I'm not skiing I'm pretty much doing random monotonous tasks. I don't know why waiting around for something has suddenly made me write off all of my productive capacity for this week but I'm getting very little of the homework I have to do done and it's not bothering me at all. It's like I'm content to just sit around and be stir crazy.

This makes me confused though, because when I was a kid and I was waiting around I was constantly looking for things to distract me. Like around Christmas for example, I absolutely had to have something to do all the time otherwise I would just sit around and stare at the Christmas tree and drive my parents nuts. I wouldn't sleep the night before either. Now, as an adult, I love sleeping because it speeds up the waiting time, and I can just sit around and do nothing (as I am already doing now).

What causes me to write of time like this? Does anyone else do this? Will Monday ever arrive?

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

What People Say

I was talking to somebody the other day and I said something that people often say, and this person asked me "What are you really saying?"

It was an interesting question because often times some phrases or words get said so often that they gain all sorts of strange meanings, or worse yet they lose their meaning entirely. They become part of that terrible grouping of words that don't mean anything.

Sorry is one of these words for some people. Have you ever heard someone (even if it was in a movie) say that sorry is just not good enough? That might be because people say sorry when they nudge you in the supermarket, but they also say sorry when they've just cheated on you and completely broken your heart. They apply in both situations but when you're dealing with some incredible hurt, it must be difficult to hear what you hear at the supermarket all the time as an attempt to make amends for what's been done.

It comes back to hurt me a little because sometimes I catch myself saying things without really thinking about what it is that they mean. I will hear words coming out of my mouth and I won't even catch the full effect of what I'm saying. I mean what I say but sometimes I forget exactly what it is that I'm saying.

So here's to saying what we really mean, and meaning what we really say, even if it is cliche.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Family Day?

There's this strange phenomenon in Ontario. It's called Family Day. The sole reason for its existence is to bridge the statutory holiday gap that occurs between new years and Easter. In a lame attempt to disguise this fact, the Ontario government decided to call it family day. You know it would have been so much less deceitful if they had just called it "New Statutory Holiday". That's roughly how applicable "Family Day" is to this particular holiday.

Anyways, I'm off to go prepare for "Family Day". The world is wonderful on Reading Break.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I Know, I Know

It's been a while, what can I say. It's bee a stressful couple of weeks in the world of Ben Gresik. I had to find an apartment for next year since I'm moving out of The House Famous in March, I had to go to a funeral, and I had a whole pile of school work that all piled up at the last second. It was not a good week for my sanity.

But I managed to get out for beers with my housemate Jason, which was good. It's amazing how relaxing a few pints with a friend and some conversation can be. It really helped me mellow out after a high strung couple of days.

Jason and I also decided to go to a concert by a grand old band called "The National". You know what that means! Relevant Youtube video time!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Foggy Week

So it turns out that being busy for more than 7 days is the worst idea ever. I got home on Monday and I was just in a fog. I didn't get too much sleep in the first little while after being home either so that probably didn't help. Things are warming up in my foggy brain now though.

As of right now I have exactly nothing done for the RPM challenge. Stuff is written but I have zero time to record anything at the moment which is a little sad. I might have to put it off until reading break, but hopefully I can get the first couple of themes out. We will just have to see. I feel less confident about this thing than I did about finishing last year but the fact that I have better equipment this year makes me think things will be better. (Update: I recorded my first guitar part today. Hooray!)

I'm also attempting to play more music at church now, just because I'm really starting to miss being able to play. I learned a lot of random songs last year and it would be nice to do that again. I'm playing this Sunday and I'm preparing a couple of songs to do (one of which is "Dead Letter and the Infinite Yes" by Wintersleep and probably a sufjan song somewhere in there) so that will be nice.

Hopefully I can make it through the fog to Saturday.