Friday, November 25, 2011

Stupid Comma Key...

I keep thinking that I want to post stuff but I never do. The reasons for this are twofold

1) I feel pretty useless right now and am getting the feeling that I'm not really doing anything.
2) The comma key isn't working on my macbook and that makes me super pissed of and self conscious.

I know the comma thing is dumb but it's actually driving me insane. Sometimes I borrow my dad's keyboard but for the most part I just refrain from posting or writing emails (it is killing me that I can't put commas in here....). I had some thoughts today though. Let me share them with you.

I was cleaning which is a lot like field work because I listen to music and perform menial tasks for long periods of time. I actually enjoy it because I'm good at it and I feel efficient AND it gives me a ton of time to think. Today I was thinking about how I haven't really made or posted any music since...10 months ago or something like that (by the way I will post the song I wrote the other day). I was trying to figure out a way to fix that problem. I want to make music and I have things that I want to say but I'm never sure how to get it all out in one session. I usually walk away with some kind of half finished idea for one part of a song because I get frustrated.

I'm thinking about trying some kind of song-a-week challenge. I'm not going to commit to anything right now (because that would inevitably lead to disappointment) but I'm going to see how things go if I actually focus on the output rather than focusing on the process. It could either go really well or really poorly.

This happens with everything I do. I could do something really amazing...or I could go home and play video games for several hours. Usually the latter occurs but I can always hope for the former. Psychology would tell me that my personality type explains this but that doesn't make it any easier.

Friday, November 18, 2011

"I Can Ride My Bike With No Handlebars..."

I wrote a song the other day. It was really easy. I did it exactly the way I had rehearsed songwriting in my head so many times. It took a total of 30 minutes. When I finished, I wondered why it took me so long to get to the point of sitting down and writing. I blame video games.

Monday, November 14, 2011

The First Day of The Rest of Your Life

Isn't every day the first day of the rest of your life? I wish I lived in a time when that statement wasn't completely cliche. It would make me feel less cynical.

Anyways, I graduate from university tomorrow. Yippee. As I've told probably fifty people by now "I dun gragiated mysef".

I am glad to be moving on from Queen's. Though there have been good things about my time here, I don't have a lot of positive feelings about the campus or any of my class experiences. I grew up, but it was hard and I'm ready to move on.

I'm not sure what's next for me. If I'm anything like most people in Ontario then I'll end up in Toronto but we'll have to see about that.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

I find it hard to convince myself that playing single player video games is a bad way to live my life. I know I'm accomplishing nothing, but I still do it.

I sat down and wrote some emails this evening. It's a much better way to spend an evening when you're worried about life plans.

These would make decent tweets...